Tuesday 19 June 2007

contradictions are my speciality.

I never intended this blog to become overtly personal, but perhaps it will become increasingly so. There is something quite freeing in releasing words out onto the internet, message in a bottle style, especially to this page which is probably not read by many people. I also like that this is public, it makes me think more carefully about what I will write. Quite a contradictory pair of things - I like writing here because I don't think many people read and yet I also like writing here because anyone could read and I am forced to choose my words carefully. Contradictions are my speciality.

Today I have been writing for roomthirteen.com, reviewing CDs as I always do. I've also been shopping, mostly for food and also for a new pair of slippers - slippers are thin on the ground at this time of year which is rather silly considering that Dundee rarely sees a temperature above 20 degrees in summer or winter. I got two crisp new pound notes in my change which was vaguely special since I hadn't seen one for a while and thought they were being phased out or something.

Everything has been overhung with the dread of having to work tomorrow, Thursday and Saturday. A job shouldn't ruin the rest of one's life but mine manages it. Tonight I will make gin cocktails and think of my Blythe doll who is coming over from Asia and probably watch 'A Scanner Darkly'; and most importantly I'll try to forget about it.

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6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi, it's Fanny :).
So you're into Blythe dolls too! You have to check out this page:
www.myspace.com/criesrealtears
That's one of my penpals and she is obsessed with those dolls! Her photos are very good I think. Thought you'd like to have a look.
xx

Hannah. said...

Thanks for the link Fanny :). The photos are fun, I can't wait to get started on mine. Your friend must be a millionaire to have bought 5 different Blythes in the space of 3 months! ;)
xx

Anonymous said...

She's not but I guess still living at home at 26 and getting benefits for pocket money only have their advantages!
Looking forward to seeing your doll piccies :).
xx

Hannah. said...

"I guess still living at home at 26 and getting benefits for pocket money only have their advantages!"
Haha, that's true. I sometimes feel jealous of people like that, which is terrible of me since I know it must be horrible to be ill (I guess she must be to get enough benefits to buy all those Blythes!) and stuck at home all day. But then it also sucks to be ill and have to go to a job you hate most days and have hardly any "pocket money" to show for it. Woe is me. Haha.
xxx

Anonymous said...

i don't know what lisa has exactly, but i think she's clinically anxious... she gets sick about things like having to take the bus so i guess that makes her unable to get a job. i wouldn't like to be in her shoes, even though having a job and generally being a grown up sucks! but yeah, her dolls cheer her up so that's worth anything :).
your own blythe is incredibly pretty!

Anonymous said...

I sent you a letter yeah, but i sent it to your old address i think by accident so i need to send it to your proper address. I'll do that tomorrow. The job hunting is crap, as always, but i may be going to work in Edinburgh but again, thats crap and means a lot of back and forwards and i dont really want to live there, I DON'T KNOW! Everything is upside right now i think.
xxx

Katie, by the way.